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again i can't sleep. to hell with this never ending work-hours carousel. more than my time, my sleep is becoming more and more of a scarcity. on the good side though, i get extra help in losing the baby fat. that is if i get to figure out a way to put my tummy to sleep. and i have to considering i need to be able to get the inches back in my leap.
anyway, week's been quiet. good. actually, the past month has been quiet so far. nothing to bother with. so far, so good. thank God. anyway, last week's Gospel was about forgiveness. one of those time when it seems Big Brother is talking to me. giving me The Word. well, it didn't mean as much last week as it does now. i mean, i guess the Gospel last week had a purpose. i'm not really good at forgiving. i'm good at forgetting, yeah... but i just can't be good at forgiving for past fouls. so i guess it's about time i do.
i've always had this notion that anger gives me the juice to push myself further. and i realize i mistake anger for competitiveness. and as much as time can heal wounds, maybe i just can't let time heal mine. and it may be late, but i guess it's about time i just do that. lately, i've been feeling anger consume me. and i know that's way bad. that's not me.
so i need to learn to forgive. forgive myself, forgive others. forgive the situations that never fit my grand scheme of things. forgive myself for falling short of what i aimed for. forgive others for taking unwarranted shots at me. i don't know how's it gonna go along, but i guess it's the right thing to do.
guess the baby fats not the only excess baggage i need to get rid of.
posted by da_kiD @ 1:47 AM
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