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i just finished reading kaye's blog... medyo nagstrike sa akin yung post niya about yung changes... ngayon ko nga lang din naexperience na umuulan pag new year... weird, 'coz the weather is always fine this time of the year... pero at least refreshing, something new naman... hindi yung lagi na lang mausok... in some other time hindi ko iisipin na ganito, pero hindi ko nafeel yung pasko... parang dumaan lang... or maybe because i was holding on to a different christmas meaning kesa dun sa dapat na hinahanap ko... maybe because i was holding on to christmas like the christmases when i was a kid. yung tipong christmas is in the lights, gifts, food, etc. now, maybe i should be searching for a new meaning to christmas... time to grow up? i don't know... how did i spend my christmas and new year? nung christmas, i went out at 8, went to my friends' houses and gave them their gifts, went to mass at 9:30, was home by 10:30... prepared food till 11:30... ate noche buena, opened my gift... yes, gift, kasi nag-iisa lang siya... texted my friends, went online... downed a couple of beers then slept. new year? almost the same routine... i grilled the chicken by 10, nagpaputok kahit na taon taon eh outgunned kami ng aming neighbor sa sobrang dami nilang paputok, ate media noche, texted my friends, went online, downed a couple of beers then slept... pretty plain routine... kaya lang, what's new is that ngayon lang nangyari yan... dati sobrang saya ng holidays... ngayon parang lumilipas na lang... parang feeling ko tuloy i'm too old for christmas. andami ding changes... this year, nakumpleto ko ung simbang gabi... that's a feat, considering i sleep at 2, wake up at 3 and go to mass at 4... tapos this year, isa lang ang gift ko... dati ang dami... ngayon nag-iisa... baby blue na towel... am i sad? nope... yun ang kakaiba pa... i'm not saddened by it all... siguro nga i'm growing up na... christmas is not in the lights, the gifts, the food, etc... christmas is in christ talaga... maybe yun na ang meaning na i should be looking forward to... christmas is a time na i should be closer to christ more than ever...
posted by da_kiD @ 1:36 AM
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